#31 - The Dead Don't Exist

Today’s words: Rectify, Visit, Hate, Run

Word count: 353

*New* Completion time: 1.5 hours

Summary: Sort out your friendships while you still can

 Not a day went by that I didn’t re-establish my hate for you

I had no qualms with wishing for your swift and immediate death

No, you were already dead to me

You called me up, I let it ring

You invited me out, I declined

I saw you in the street and turned the other cheek

The dead don’t exist

Best friends didn’t come any better

If you fell, I felt it

When you were happy, my heart warmed up

I didn’t mind getting hurt

Because I know you’d be there to cheer me up

But after a rumour that you started got out of hand

We never spoke again

You wanted to rectify the situation

So persistently

You bought my favourite snacks and left them by the door

Wrote letters covered with inside jokes

The more I frowned at you, the more you smiled

Why did you make it so hard to hate you?

The last time you messaged me, I still didn’t reply

You said you were serious, that something was wrong

I turned my phone on its screen and turned away

You didn’t stop

My phone didn’t stop vibrating, telling me that you needed me

So I left the room

Soon after, the house phone rang

My father answered it and called me down

“Ethan’s in hospital.”

Good

“What?”

“Something’s wrong with his heart.”

Good

“...What?”

“He’s asking for you; you should visit.”

“...Where is he?”

I held a hand to my chest and ran

I tried to run so fast that my feet could barely keep up

Images ran through my head like a movie reel

Us when we were kids,

When we got into the same secondary school,

When you drew us and promised you’d always be there

“You’re a liar!!” I screamed to the air that was rushing past my face.

I screamed it so loud, hoping that my tears would get scared and disappear

 

By the time I made it to the local hospital, there was no point in staying

Since you don’t exist

Not anymore

It would have been easier

If I hated you