#94 - Eyesore

Today’s words: Remodel, Unadvised, Education, Delicate

Word count: 295

Completion time: 18 minutes

Summary: It’s possible to change yourself to fit society’s definition of beauty...but they’ll only find something else to make you feel ugly again

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She leans against the peeling wallpaper that’s covered in roses as she picks and scratches her delicate skin. She wants it all gone, wants to remodel herself from the beginning, make it so that she comes out perfect.

When a drawing comes out wrong, the artist crumples it up, throws it away...if the drawing’s conscious, why can’t it redo itself? If it knew that it was an eyesore...would it be unadvised to tell it to change? Sketches can be erased and redrawn, edited and re-edited as many times as they want and it’s okay, so why not for humans? That’s what she thought.

“I want to be beautiful, skinny, lighter, I want to...”

...Please all of the people who only aim to make you feel worse about yourself.

If you change everything about yourself, they’re only going to throw more insecurity at you. Once you’ve cleaned your pretty white dress, bleached it white and ironed out all the creases, they’re only going to find more barbeque sauce and ketchup to dirty it again.

If you give up on looks and try to get a sound education, they’ll mock you relentlessly because you don’t know as much as them, and you’ll never be as smart because you’re a woman. Not only a woman, but a black woman.

Descended from savages, illiterate fools, closer to animal than human. Monkeys can’t read.

Though, once you realise that you can never please them...you don’t have to care so much.

Instead of pleasing them, please yourself. Be someone that you would be proud to know, someone who other people can look up to.

Get up from the floor and fight conformity, don’t submit to it.

You have the power to beat this, they just don’t want you to realise that